When I think back on my childhood, the summers that
stand out in vivid relief. I loved those endless days
where nothing ever seemed to happen. For big fun, we'd
walk to the 7-11, the only logical destination for a kid
in our isolated housing development. Our flip-flops
would shuffle along the mica-flecked sidewalk. Our
languid pace would pick up as we got closer to the oasis
of the air-conditioned store, lured by the siren's call
of Slurpees and brain freeze.
As we got older, the limited charms of the 7-11
faded. We'd make our younger siblings bring us back
six-packs of Tab and Fresca. We concentrated on doing
sit-ups, keeping obsessive track of our weight and
cataloguing our perceived imperfections. Before long, we
found ourselves discovering tricks--like how you can eat
anything you want and not get fat so long as you throw
up after. And that there was almost always a full gallon
jug of wine hidden behind the paper bags in the pantry.
And that no one noticed if you took a thermos-fill or
three.
Boredom, it seemed, bred trouble.
Now that I have a daughter of my own, my philosophy
for summertime is simple: Keep her busy. Too busy to get
bored, too busy to grab onto trouble just because
there's nothing more attractive to distract her. Sure,
she's only five ("five and five/sixths," she would have
me say), but already our summer routine is packed. It's
a flurry of day camp, swimming lessons, trips to the
beach, jaunts to the neighborhood pool and whatever else
I can think up.
And in a way, I'm sad for her.
On one level, she's growing up in a world that looks
much the same as the one I grew up in. It's the same
sort of quiet suburban neighborhood, same kind of
single-story ranch house. But the truth is that the
world has changed, and the things I took for granted are
gone for good. I'd never dream of telling her to go out
and play and come in when the streetlights come on,
certainly not at age eight. But that's the age when I
started getting that sort of freedom. (I'll probably
still walk her to school when she's a bundle of
adolescent embarrassment. She'll insist that I wait
around the corner so none of her friends can see what a
dork I am.)
When I see the seven-year-old across the street
playing outside alone without an adult in sight, I'm
anxious. I think of children who disappear and are found
dead, like Danielle Van Dam. I wonder what our
neighbor's parents are thinking. When I spot a
second-grader crossing a busy street by himself, I
dawdle so that I can keep an eye on him and make sure he
doesn't get hit by a car. I've conditioned my own child
so well that she'd no more dream of going out the front
door by herself than she would of putting on her pajamas
without being asked.
Besides the whole keep-her-alive-as-long-as-possible
angle, my thinking is that if I keep her busy -- let's
go to the beach! the zoo! natural history camp! --
she'll come to see summer as a productive time
throughout her entire childhood. (And more importantly,
those dangerous teenage years. Or perhaps I project just
a wee bit.) If your days are already full, there's no
need to fill them up by lying around bored in front of
the TV, trying out a glass of that rotgut wine way in
the back of the cupboard, trying a joint or a cigarette
just because you can't think up anything better to do
with yourself.
And yet ... I can't help feeling that these kids have
lost something. I know that the good old days of my
childhood weren't necessarily that much safer. There
were molesters, and kids getting run over, and no one
ever dreamed of wearing a bicycle helmet. But we had our
freedom, and it sure tasted sweet. Time was a yo-yo that
spun out in impossibly long strands before being snapped
back, small enough to fit in the palm of your hand.
Now, time looks a lot more like an endless to-do
list. Which isn't half as much fun as Slurpees and
yo-yos, that's for sure.