August 9, 1995
There are a half-dozen of us, 13-year-old boys draped over the gunwales
of an old World War II landing craft as it clears the reef-enclosed harbor
and heads for open water. We are a group of Sea Scouts, sons of U.S. Central
Intelligence Agency officers stationed at a super-secret training base on
the island of Saipan in the Marianas, and on this Saturday morning in 1956
we are headed for the island of Tinian, ten miles to the south.
The two adults accompanying us are CIA personnel, founders and supervisors of our Scout chapter, each of them expert in small boat handling, an expertise they put to use weekdays training Chiang Kai-shek's Nationalist guerrillas for sabotage missions on the Chinese mainland.
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My friends and I are aware of the incongruity in our lives: This 12-by-5-mile
island thousands of miles from anywhere, inhabited by an indigenous Saipanese
population of spearfishermen and subsistence farmers. And in the middle
of this landscape, atop the island's highest mountain, a ready-made American
suburb with carefully-planned streets with sidewalks and streetlights, 2-
and-3 bedroom homes and a modern shopping center.
Mere steps from the edges of this unlikely compound was the jungle. All but the restricted area on the island's northern end where the guerrillas trained was available to us, and much of our free time was spent cutting machete swaths through the brush or following narrow dirt roads through overgrown inland valleys. Where a year before I and my young comrades would have been spending our after-school hours on the ballfields of Washington D.C.'s bedroom communities, the terrain we now visited introduced us to more problematic contests. The detritus of the World War II battle for the island was everywhere. We clambered into burned-out tanks and crashed aircraft, discovered pillboxes and caves, speculating like archaeologists about the remains of soldiers' bones and equipment we found, our reedy adolescent voices solemn with our first reflections about death in the afternoon.
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Each boy gets a turn at the helm. I steer as we thread the channel through
the Tinian reef and then glide across the glassy lagoon and drop the bow
ramp onto the beach.
We've ferried a jeep over, and before we set out a Coast Guardsman from the island's loran station directs us to some nearby prehistoric ruins. We soon reach a clearing of large, capstoned pyramidical pillars set in a dozen double rows and standing at least 12 feet high. Remnants of the House of Taga, probably dating from around 1500 B.C., the guardsman had said; the dwelling of a legendary Chamorran king who ruled over the Marianas and was said to have been 10 feet tall.
We sit quietly for a long time in the soft grass and depart reluctantly. Throughout the morning one of the men has talked about the World War II Tinian air base. Suddenly we are upon it, a deserted plain of limitless and gleaming coral runways, eroded at their edges by the ever-encroaching jungle vegetation.
We hurtle the runways at top speed. One of my friends insists he knows how to drive, and the men let him. We jerk and careen for miles, howling with laughter at this diminutive maniac behind the wheel.
As we pull up to a small, lone wooden building at the airfield's boundary, one of the men says flatly, "This is it." We fall silent and stare at the bare floors and barn-high ceilings, the room yielding no evidence of what had occurred here 11 years earlier. I try to imagine it, and have a sense of its aftermath, remembering what I had seen some months before on a family vacation to Japan: long stretches of dusty Tokyo lots, still barren from firebombings a decade ago. I reread the inscription on a plaque nailed to the wall outside. It mentions nothing other than the names of the military units and aircraft, and the dates upon which the atom bombs assembled here were flown to Hiroshima and Nagasaki.
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We sail up to the narrow end of the lagoon and anchor. Above us 25-foot
limestone cliffs drop abruptly to the water. Off the bow a small cove bisects
the cliffs, with a pristine patch of beach at its base.
We tumble naked over the side. None of us has seen water this clear and dazzling anyplace in the islands, and as we snorkel we practice the technique the Saipanese fishermen use: Be still, a part of your surroundings; become fish yourselves.
Later we find footholds in a cliff wall and gain access a ledge six feet from the top.We dive off it for hours, arching into caressing skies and plummeting through to welcoming depths. Occasionally I look toward the men on the boat, these colleagues of our fathers, men in the business of overthrowing governments, and I wonder what they're thinking about.
The boy who had earlier driven the jeep scrambles up for one last dive before we sail home. He begins clawing the remaining cliff face and manages to crest the bluff, thrusts out his chest, spreads his arms wide and bellows, "I am Taga, goddammit, invincible ruler over this domain!" He runs the entire length of the cliffs, directly along the edge, flapping his arms and shouting. We loudly cheer him on, certain, as is he, that any misstep will be cushioned by a forgiving sea.
two mornings fifty years apart
a Fat Man fell
one day's dew rolled away to fear and darkness
the other's to song and light
so long, Jerry, the ride was brief
the solos echo long and sweet